The Reluctant Saint’s Journey - A Personal Reflection

It was on August 5th, 2024, that I began this blog, but I felt compelled to share daily reflections starting from the 1st. Looking back on these days, I realize they’ve been a journey of catching up—not just with the readings but with my relationship with God. On August 1st, we learned to be like clay in the hands of God, molded and shaped by His will. This teaching resonates deeply with me as I reflect on the last 20 years of my life.

I share this shamefully yet humbly: I’ve been a rebel. Throughout my life, I’ve struggled with consistency in reading scripture and committing to a daily spiritual practice. For many years, I would pick up the Bible only to let it gather dust soon after. My intentions were good—my mind wanted to follow the path, but my heart wasn’t in it. I was obedient, but often against my will, leading to a lack of true commitment. When tested by God, I crumbled, and my journey would come to a halt.

It’s only in the past five years that something has shifted. Through life’s milestones and God’s gentle yet firm revelations, I’ve come to a place where my heart, mind, and entire being are ready to be clay in the Potter’s hands. I’m ready to be molded, no longer resisting His shaping. 

I share this with you, hoping that you find this readiness sooner rather than later in your "holiday on earth." As Earl Nightingale once said, "Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don't wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future." Your journey is yours alone, but it’s never too late to let God in and allow Him to shape you into the person He’s always intended you to be.